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The Story of the Song, Psalm 139

After a month on a singing tour in Poland and Ukraine, my traveling companion, Heather and I landed in England. She had asked me if there was anyway we could stay for just two days and see  Q Gardens. It wasn’t until I woke up that first morning in London that I realized just how stressed and even scared I had been while traveling. We were chaperoned by a Pastor in Poland and his wife, Arik and Marjana Boiko (friends who lived in the U.S. for a length of time and had returned to Poland.) There were parts of our journey that we were instructed to not speak a word as the taxi cab driver (driving us from the train) was speaking of ‘ The Americans’ to other drivers at one point. The journeying was exhausting and there was a low-lying stress that surrounded us most of the time. So when I opened my bible, on that sunny morning in London while still in bed and read the words of this Psalm, I was inspired to put it to music.

You are There, Psalm 139 Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Singer and Song Writer, Blog, Music, Guitar Twelve Step Recovery, Speaker, Concert Artist, sally.atari@yahoo.com, sallyatari.com

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

You have searched me, Lord,
    and you know me. 
You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
    you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
    and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
    Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
    and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

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The Song, Anchor to Anchor

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Inspirational Music, Gospel, Christian, Concerts, Public Speaker, Bookings, CI’m a type ‘A’ personality; apparently we run around all day, determined to get as much ‘packed into the stream of life’ as possible (AA Big book, Pg. 86).  When it’s time for bed, it’s hard to turn off my brain and fall asleep. I wonder if other type ‘A’ personalities are like this? It’s been a long time since I have struggled to fall asleep and instead lay awake, exhausted, anxious and afraid I would not sleep at all. But I have had many nights like that, so I remember well what it feels like.

As a child,  at bedtime, my younger sisters and I would camp out on the hard wood floor outside our parents locked, bedroom door. With a pillow and blanket, we were afraid to sleep in our own rooms, largely because of ‘the fire’. We would pick a spot and make ourselves as comfortable as possible. I laugh at the  memory of my older sister, Danielle, trapped and struggling to open her bedroom door; she would mumble her complaints as she struggled to push the door open and past all the bodies on the floor in the hallway. She just wanted to use the bathroom. I slept like that until I was twelve-years-old.  Suddenly, I had overcome the fear and started sleeping in my own bed. I was such a mercenary, I invited my two younger sisters to sleep next to me; the deal was, I ‘got to’ sleep in the middle! (I remember that the middle was the coveted spot as apparently that gave you more time to think if the ‘bogy man’ showed up!)

I was thirty something when I wrote Anchor to Anchor, which is found on the album Where Morning Dawns. Lying awake in the dark, the first verse of the song describes one such night.

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