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Deception: Who Are You Kidding?

The Deception of Others is Rooted in The Deception of Ourselves!

As I journey through the bible, one particular day of study I read three areas that spoke  pointedly to deception;  I had to consider the importance of this subject for me! Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Singer and Song Writer, Blog, Music, Guitar Twelve Step Recovery, Speaker, Concert Artist, sallyatari@gmail.com, sallyatari.com, StudyThe first thing I read, that morning, was 1 Kings 14:1-9 (I strive to read 3 chapters in the old testament, one in new and one psalm or poetic book chapter.)

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What do You Believe? Part 1

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Singer and Song Writer, Twelve Step RecoveryWhat do you believe?  THE PROBLEM:

For many years, I considered myself a believer,  A Christian. I went through all kinds of motions: early morning prayer, off to church on Sunday, read and study the bible alone and with groups of people,  I even left literature in the bathroom at the conservatory I attended. I was just eighteen years old and was subsequently called into the Dean’s office  (I was delighted that they knew it was me as I was so vocal about my love for God!)

Since the age of  14, I had struggled with a binge disorder that included episodes of fasting, binging and bulimia, all at the same time that I was pulled into that Deans office for leaving literature in the bathroom.  Why didn’t it dawn on me to bring this problem to God?  In fact, I would live like that for another five years until I was twenty-two years old and the mother of two tiny people (age 2 years  and 8 days old).  I finally cried out to God, “Help me, I’m like an alcoholic only it’s the food! I can’t control this! Help me!” I wasn’t trying to be dramatic; I was alone, it was late morning, the children were napping and I was laying on my kitchen floor, face down and arms out stretched as if my kitchen windows were facing God! Why did I wait so long to bring the problem to God?

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What’s blocking You?

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari Music

Blocked!

The only use for the word ‘blocked’ I have ever heard of is ‘writers block’. As I have never considered myself a writer, I never really gave the word much thought. Although I have been in a twelve-step recovery group since age 22, I had never heard this term used. Long about three years ago, I learned that a book I have carried for over 30 years in my bag of books to meeting after meeting (three meetings a week for many of those years) was the key that would unlock much of my sick and spiritually unhealthy thinking. The book is called, ‘Alcoholics Anonymous’ aka ‘The Big Book’.

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