Sure, I memorized the Third Step Prayer. . .
a long time ago. But I didn’t make it my own (A.A. Big Book, Pg. 63). The ‘Step Three Prayer’ from my heart looks like this:
–I offer myself to you: I give up on running the show… I give up on playing God in my life…. I’m done running the show! Please, You be the director… the boss, the father I long for….
-Build with me
-Do with me…what ever you think is best! Because You know what’s best for me! You know me better than I know me!
What Do You Believe ~ THE SOLUTON
Now, let’s look at what the AA Big Book teaches as the key components of faith. You may ask, ‘Why? Who cares what this book says about faith?’ This book has led many to physical healing and has provided a spiritual gateway to those who would never consider God. Additionally, the fingerprints of God are all over its pages!
To begin with, ‘Faith Means Courage‘ (Pg. 68). This sentence is found on a page in the Big Book that teaches how to handle fear. My life was ‘driven by a hundred forms of fear’ (Pg.62). Most of my decisions were made through the lens or filter of fear. Was I trusting God? Was I going to God? When I look back, the answer is not complicated. No.
The truth is, I tried to reason my way out of everything. Oh, I had faith! I trusted in my own reasoning skills. “We had been faithful, abjectly faithful to the God of reason.” (Pg. 54) I trusted in my ability to figure ‘it’ (every thing) out, to reason my way out of every problem. If I couldn’t reason my way out, then I was scared and turned to food. When I was happy, ‘Oh good, food!’ When I was sad, food was my comfort. Tired? Food. Angry? Food! Lonely? Food! The answer to every problem: food!