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What do You Believe? Part 1

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Singer and Song Writer, Twelve Step RecoveryWhat do you believe?  THE PROBLEM:

For many years, I considered myself a believer,  A Christian. I went through all kinds of motions: early morning prayer, off to church on Sunday, read and study the bible alone and with groups of people,  I even left literature in the bathroom at the conservatory I attended. I was just eighteen years old and was subsequently called into the Dean’s office  (I was delighted that they knew it was me as I was so vocal about my love for God!)

Since the age of  14, I had struggled with a binge disorder that included episodes of fasting, binging and bulimia, all at the same time that I was pulled into that Deans office for leaving literature in the bathroom.  Why didn’t it dawn on me to bring this problem to God?  In fact, I would live like that for another five years until I was twenty-two years old and the mother of two tiny people (age 2 years  and 8 days old).  I finally cried out to God, “Help me, I’m like an alcoholic only it’s the food! I can’t control this! Help me!” I wasn’t trying to be dramatic; I was alone, it was late morning, the children were napping and I was laying on my kitchen floor, face down and arms out stretched as if my kitchen windows were facing God! Why did I wait so long to bring the problem to God?


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