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We have to Surrender To Win! (Anonymous)

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Singer and Song Writer, Blog, Music, Guitar Twelve Step RecoverySeptember

is for new beginning. Perhaps it’s because so much of our early lives are spent in school. It seems to me that September and more specifically, the day after Labor Day, should be ‘New Year’s Day’ for the world. Starting school, starting a new job, or just the end of vacationing all summer and “buckling down” to dig in and push forward on a special project at work or home: because we are trained to make a beginning in September. What ever it is, there is energy in the air (could be the heat is letting up and we all have more energy!)

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To Be or Not To Be

imagesRecently, a dear friend said to me, “Sally! God created you to be a human being, not a human doing. You must slow down and you must focus on ‘being’ … not so much ‘doing’.  I found this so interesting. Self thought: ‘Hmmmmm, but I have so much to do?!?!’

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Wiggle Room

“Yellow-Light foods” and What I’ve learned.

Sally Ettari a/k/a Sally Atari, Inspirational Music, Gospel, Christian, Concerts, Public Speaker, Bookings, Christian, OA, GuitarIn my quest to ‘discover’  what foods are driving my eating disorder, in other words, to clarify what foods are leading me back to the cliffs (see Cliff walking), that place where I reach a threshold and binge,  I was asked to make my list of Red-light foods: the foods I know to be binge foods, Green light-foods,  the ones “I’m positive” (Note to self: Really? Are you sure?) I can handle, and my Yellow-light foods, the ones we identify as “I’m not sure they are a problem.” These foods are the ones I have held onto with a vengeance!

That about sums it up. “Get back in there: I can control this, and I’m NOT GIVING IT UP, It’s Mine, Mine Mine!” It wasn’t till I joined a 12 step recovery group that I started to identify ‘what exactly is the problem,’ calling them, “MY” (MINE, MINE, MINE!!!) ‘Red-Light, Green-light and Yellow-light foods.’  After 33 years in this program, I have finally learned, if they are ‘Yellow-light foods’, they are, most likely, ‘red-light’ foods you are holding onto. I had heard this before from one woman, but she said it in such a ‘matter of fact’ way, I dismissed her as being ‘nuts’, ‘wrong’, and gave it the old, “Thanks for the information” (Pg. 39, Anonymous), ‘See ya!’.

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Hippocampus News!

Really? Do I need this information? YOU DO! This is great news! READ ON!

The company I work for sent me (as their brand new “Assistant Clinical Director”, i.e.,  Nurse Educator) to a seminar on the Pathophysiology and Psycho-pharmacology of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)sallyatari.com, singer/songwriter, God is Good, The Bible, Musician, Guitar lover, the brain. As I suspected, there is a direct correlation between alcoholism and PTSD. Let me jump right into the deep end.

According to scientific research using PET Scan and MRI, they have proven that the Hippocampus (located in our brain) shrinks as much as 20% with repeated and / or untreated trauma. This part of the brain #1. regulates emotion, #2. is primarily involved with judgement, and #3. plays an important part in  long-term memory.  (Does this ring a bell with regard to symptoms associated with addiction?) These symptoms describe my disease… my history of addiction specific to ‘binge eating disorder’.  The AA Big Book describes it like this: “The Mental Twist” (poor judgement, Pg. 92), the problems with memory, (mental blank spots, Pg. 42), and the poor regulation of our emotions (“We often found ourselves handicapped by obstinacy,  sensitiveness, and unreasoning prejudice.  Pg. 48). By the way, Websters dictionary equates being “reasonable” with sanity. Thus, unreasoning would indicate a level of insanity. Just saying! These are symptoms that accompany any one with a serious eating disorder when they are in their “cups”.

The good news is that when the patient is treated properly (first with therapeutic treatment and if necessary, medications), the hippocampus grows back in as little as two months. This struck me because in various places in the AA Big Book, we learn that many recovered in as little as two months. One such example was Bill’s drinking buddy and friend, Ebby, the man who brought the step (6 steps for the original Oxford Group Pg. 263) program to Bill. At the bottom of Pg. 9, we are told that, “They had told of a simple religious idea and a practical program of action. That was two months ago and the result was self-evident. It worked!” Ebby was healed in 2 months (the time it takes for the hippocampus to begin to grow back). I sat listening to the information on PTSD and thought, this sure does remind  me of the information we know about Alcoholism. Then, the PhD in Pharmacology, delivering the lecture ,suddenly brought up Alcoholism and that all that refers to PTSD also applies to Alcoholism.

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